化解

反感的感觉。。就因为你的一句话而化解了。。

这。。到底是什么东西啊。。

Irreplaceable

Was so excited and I think I've consumed too much of oily food when I was back in KL last Thursday, and guess what, I'm having food poisoning right now. On the Saturday night, when I was shopping with my parents at the nearby JUSCO, just in a sudden, my stomach felt uncomfortable and started to ache so badly till I tell them to back home immediately. Was suffering so badly whole night until I beh tahan, and finally, my mom asked me to look for doctor. Yes, I was right, doctor says that is something to deal with the food, which means, food poisoning. He reminded me not to take any of these dairy products such as chess, milk. Only light food can be taken, no more fried thingy and so. Oh gosh, no dairy products, no milk...Haih =(

So what happened was, my mom sat beside me, accompanying me whole night and I knew that she gotta go to office tomorrow morning due to some special event. I knew that she is very tired at the moment and asked her to sleep first yet she refused to do so. Actually, no matter what is happening, she will be the only one who always stands by my side to give me her full support. My dad too, although had felt asleep in the middle of the night, but woke up to see my condition and asked me to drink more water. And really thanks to my bro as he left her gf alone in my house and fetched me to the nearby clinic in the middle of the night too. I love them so much!!

Hmm..something weird did happen along the way to the clinic, although the clinic is just a throwing stone distance away from my house. I told my mom that I saw a grandpa with his grandson were smiling so sweetly and waving his hand so fast at the roadside. And my mom responded..

Mom : where?

Me : neh, just now at the junction there, saw them or not?

Mom : i think you are getting blur or something

Me : ....

*yea hor..now is middle of the night, if he is a teenage that still hanging out in the middle of the night still ok la, but now is an old man with a small lil' child weh !! *

oh ~~~~ shit !!

A meaningful story to share with =D

Saw this post from my friend's blog. After getting her approval, I've decided to re-post it at here and share with my dear friends. It's quite meaningful and this story is roughly talking about a guy, who has lost his directions, as he has a wife, but is falling for another girl. So he seeks for God's opinion and hope that HE will guide him through. Eventually, he notice that the girl he likes is just a passer by, just that he has put way too much attention on her recently. If he's able to diversify his focus on her, the girl he likes is just a normal girl and his wife.....aiyah..complicated.. i also dunno what am i talking edy..lazy to translate...read yourself la..enjoy !! =D

深夜，寺里一人一佛，佛坐人站。

人： 圣明的佛，我是一个已婚之人，我现在狂热地爱上了另

一个女人，我真的不知道该怎幺办。

佛：你能确写你现在爱上的这个女人就是你生命里唯一的最

后一个女人吗？

人：是的。

佛：你离婚，然后娶她。

人：可是我现在的爱人温柔，善良， 贤惠，我这样做是否有

一点残忍，有一点不道德。

佛：在婚姻中没有爱才是残忍和不道德的，你现在爱上了别

人已不爱她了，你这样做是正确的。

人：可是我爱人很爱我，真的很爱我。

佛：那她就是幸福的。

人： 我要与她离婚后另娶她人，她应该是很痛苦的又怎幺会

是幸福的呢？

佛：在婚姻里她还拥有她对你的爱，而你在婚姻中已失去对

她的爱， 因为你爱上了别人，正谓拥有的就是幸福的，失去的才是痛

苦的，所以痛苦的人是你。

人：可是我要和她离婚后另娶她人，应该是她失去了我，她

应该才是痛苦的。

佛：你错了，你只是她婚姻中真爱的一个具体，当你这个具

体不存在的时候，她的真爱会延续到另一个具体，因为她在

婚姻中的真爱从没有失去过。所以她才是幸福的而你才是痛

苦的。

人：她说过今生只爱我一个，她不会爱上别人的。

佛：这样的话你也说过吗？

人：我。我。。 我。。。

佛：你现在看你面前香炉里的三根蜡烛，那根最亮。

人：我真的不知道，好象都是一样的亮。

佛： 这三根蜡烛就好比是三个女人，其中一根就是你现在所

爱的那个女人，芸芸众生，女人何止千百万万，你连这三根

蜡烛那根最亮都不知道，都不能把你现在爱的人找出来，你

为什么又能确定你现在爱的这个女人就是你生命里唯一的最

后一个女人呢？

人：我。我。。我。。。

佛：你现在拿一根蜡烛放在你的眼前，用心看看那根最亮

人： 当然是眼前的这根最亮。

佛：你现在把它放回原处，再看看那根最亮

人：我真的还是看不出那根最亮。

佛： 其实你刚拿的那根蜡烛就是好比是你现在爱的那个最后

的女人，所谓爱由心生，当你感觉你爱她时，你用心去看就

觉的它最亮，当你把它放回原处，你却找不到最亮的一点感

觉，你这种所谓的最后的唯一的爱只是镜花水月，到头来终

究是一场空。

人：哦，我懂了，你并不是要我与我的爱人离婚，你是在点

化我，

佛：看破不说破，你去吧

人：我现在真的知道我爱的是谁了，她就是我现在的爱人。

佛：阿弥陀佛，阿弥陀佛

你我曾经深爱过的某人，无非也就是芸芸众生中的一个，只

是爱由心生，自以为他/她会是今生最爱，当你感觉你爱她

，你用心去爱就觉的他/她最珍贵，当万物归原，生命仍然

继续，他/她无非也就是我们生命中的一个过客。

我们根本无 法确定哪一个才是今生最爱，如果不懂得去珍惜

，你身边这个爱你的/你爱的人，在某一天，也会成为你身

边的过客。

找一个你爱的人不容易，找一个爱你的人也不容 易。如果无

法确定哪一个才是你最爱的人，何不在自己成为别人的爱人

的时候珍惜这份感情？爱由心生，你告诉自己是爱他/她的

，自然就可以爱上他/她。

如果你爱的人不爱你，也请记得： 爱由心生。是你太过于把

目光集中在他/她身上了，试着放开视线焦点，你会发现光

亮的蜡烛到处都有。

爱与不爱，无非也就是在一念之间。

过 去的事情过去的爱情，就让它过去吧，那只是我们生命的

一部分，只是茫茫大海中的一滴水珠，只是漫漫苍弩中的一

粒微尘。没有那些过去，也不会造就现在的你我。

珍惜当前，永远胜于三心 二意

After reading this story, I realize that I need to do like what the story says. For me and her, we might be just a passer by for either one of us. So, staying at where we are now will be the most appropriate distance.

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Randomness @ 10.20

Woke up early in the morning and took some pictures

放弃了。。

从昨天晚上到现在。。整个人都在心情不好。。情绪很低落。。大概是考试出来的成绩很不理想吧。。在上一个学期。。因为某些因素。。知道自己已经达不到自己的目标。。真的很失望。。不过。。最后还是决定了要继续努力。。要尽自己的最后一份努力。。也不像浪费父母的血汗钱。。决定了坚持到底。。当初。。也是自己做的决定。。决定离开工作的世界。。继续读书。。一开始。。都很努力的再奋斗。。可是学业却一天比一天的差。。想说“没关系。。这个学期。。一定要比上一个学期更努力”。。结果。。我真的很用心去听课。。很用心的去读书。。很可惜。。到了考试的时候。。因为在某些地方出错了。。知道自己的成绩不会很好。。不过应该还好。。

直到昨天。。考试成绩出了。。看到自己的分数。。还比想象中还要差。。顿时的我。。真的好像没有了知觉。。完全失去了喜怒哀乐。。不知该怎么办才好。。完全失去了方向。。原来。。那么多天的努力。。都是白费的。。倒不如不要去读更好。。

再过几天。。就剩下最后的考试。。其实。。现在的我。。还没考。。就已经放弃了。。反正。。没读书考出来的成绩。。和努力读出来的成绩没差。。

今天。。除了出去吃东西之外。。一直都呆在家。。在想。。爸妈和哥哥对我的期望。。甚至是我的目标。。都完了。。考不到好的成绩。。就等于自己亲手把目标给毁灭掉。。这一刻的我。。真的开始怀疑自己。。到底我会什么。。我懂什么。。感觉上。。又替这个社会添了一个败类。。很可笑的是。。一位朋友对我说。。“你啊。。你会玩吉他啊” 。。我心想。。会玩吉他有屁用啊。。那也只是我其中一个爱好而已。。再说。。我不是音乐的专业人士。。根本起不了什么作用。。

就这样想下想下想下。。脑海中又不知不觉的出现了她。。当天。。和她根本就不熟（现在也是）。。只觉得这个人。。很胡闹。。很野蛮。。没想到。。也在不知不觉中她踏入了我的生活圈中。。无意中对她产生了好感。。话说回来。。如今都快要到4月了。。原来已经对她有好感都快要接近4个月了。。时间过得真快。。

就当我想到这里时。。想起有一个人曾今对我说过。。其实。。无论你们认识了多久。。无论你们在一起多久。。只要你们有共同的话题。。就会有说不完的东西。。也因为这样。。彼此的关系会越来越好。。哈哈。。其实。。她也说的对。。

再说。。我和她。。真的完全没有话题。。所以。。打从一开始呢。。我就觉得我们真的一点都合不来。。甚至可以说。。根本就不可能吧。。曾今有朋友一直问我。。为什么你不跟他说。。为什么你不承认。。为什么这个。。为什么那个。。其实。。都是因为。。我觉得。。我们根本就不适合。。保持这样的距离。。也许。。对我们俩都是最好的。。也可以说。。我们还是永远的朋友。。

把自己的心情写完出来。。感觉上轻松了好多。。

真爽 ！！至少。。心情不再是那么的承重了。。

A lil' Something =D

Few days back, was a lil' boring and made myself a lil' something =D

Yeap, I DIY it myself. Didn't do well in today's exam, but anyway, just let it be, nothing can be done by now.

Guess what, assignments will be accompanying me this whole bloody night. How good if students are able to get rid of this frustrating and annoying stuff.

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推荐一下 =D

对 ！！ 我的歌 =D

很开心。。几天前。。又受到一些人的肯定。。

不妨在这里推荐推荐一下我个人作品。。姆哈哈哈哈哈 ！！！

回忆街

詞 / 曲 : 佑

走在潮湿的街上

雨声滴答滴答地在响

听不见你对我说的话

爱情是否是那么一样

失去了才会懂得悲伤

人总不能犯同一个错啊

人 该有性觉的能力

也该有复原的能力

不会再沉迷

亦不会这样丧气

离开那伤心的世界

走入另一个温暖的夜

我的心也会这样好过一些

没有理由继续留恋

在那个绝望的世界里面

从今以后也不会冒险

有兴趣听的话。。可以点击

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Reality vs. Internet

Human will not express their feeling 100% in real life, because it's kinda hard to express your own expression especially when come to face-to-face situation, even when you are with your closest friends, I bet you will still have something with you that you will prevent yourself from doing it or so.

There was once I heard from someone saying that internet is actually a place where people use it very much to express the deepest feeling of their own. Surprisingly, you will notice that people who are not active or talkative will be chit-chatting from morning till night with you or someone else either in MSN or in a forum. Frankly, I did met up with these kind of people before, not once, but quite a few number of them. N-years back, I used to chat in forum with some of my friends. So, what happened was this girl, came into our conversation and joint us for our conversation for quite some time. Later, we invited all of them out for an outing, (of course we knew who are they but not simply ajak one, just that we haven't meet up before). So this girl, was so quiet and we didn't even realize who she is until we ask what's her nickname in that forum. She was so quiet, sitting at there, smiling, listening what we are talking about but didn't even voice up a single word.

So, what's the main different in sense of expressing using wordings between internet and reality world? A very simple example, say, a friend is asking for your opinion on her dressing.

1. If she is just a normal friend for you, you might say 'Hmm...not bad !!' (with that fake expression that gonna appear on your face =D)

2. If she is a good friend of yours, you might say 'Hmm..I think it suits you, but you can try another one, it might looks better'

3. If she is a close friend of yours, you might say, "Eh.. tak ngam you la...change another one see see... *helping her to look around* nah, try this"

So, what happen if you ask for comments from the internet? These are the people who don't even know or won't even care who the hell are you. What will be their comments?

Girls :

Wah..not bad wor, where did you get the shirt from ar? Which shop? How much? Got try the yellow one?..Maybe better for you? Mini skirt very cute wor...got other design or colour ma?

Guys:

(a) If you are pretty (you better be)

Wah..leng lui arr !! Cute little girl !! The mini skirt...so short...if you don't wear, you might looks prettier...muahahaha!! You got bf ar? You stay at where one?

(b)If you are not pretty

Woi...don't wear la...you wear what also not nice one larr..don't waste money !! Eh...don't memper'sia sui'kan that brand la..take it off la !! Your face ar..not pretty lo...you better go @#$%^

Hahahahaha...so, in reality, do these people have the guts to really give these comments to her when meeting up face to face? I bet they won't !! They won't even have the guts or dare to say that !!

Went on surfing on youtube, saw a band with some comments, which actually inspired me to write this post, those comments sounds quite funny to me. This is a band consist of a drummer and guitarists, with a girl who will be performing using her saxophone.

1. the band is just sick . perfect for this sweet gal .

2. anyone who didn't fall in love with a cute girl blowing on a sax is either gay or a girl.

3. She's that amazing she should turn gay's straight and straight girls gay XD

4. A: how she do to learn all that beautiful songs? B: By farting

5. she's hot! *drools* :D

6. Japanese girls are every bit so cute

Hey guys !! Don't forget, she is just a saxophone performer..hahaha..

Good night everyone...cheers !!

So close yet so far (Random)

Human brain - recognized as the smartest brain that ever existed on the earth. We observe, we learn, we practice, and later implement or do whatever we have learnt at the initial stage. Of course, errors will occur from time to time, and this is where we'll analyse our own mistakes, and correct it, so on and so forth. These processes might be the main reason to elucidate why human's brain are evolving so quickly. No doubt that this is a good thing for the human being, yet disadvantages do exist. As errors occurs, stress will eventually exist as we will squeeze our brain and come out with the best solution. Sooner or later, all kind of illnesses will be visiting you now and then.

Taking students as an example, there are still quite a number of parents having the thinking that student has nothing much to do than just concentrating on their studies. Why would they have these kind of thinking? I would say it is mainly due evolutionary of education system over the decades. Previously, our parents do not have our so-called assignments as well as thesis. Ultimately, we have to explain what we are doing in school nowadays and there are tons of homeworks for us to do rather than just doing tutorial questions and concentrating in our studies.

Fortunately, I would say that most of the parents which had hitherto been thoughtful. Thus, they will not put much pressure on their beloved sons and daughters although considerably expectations from us still exist. Nonetheless, no matter how thoughtful or mature you are, when human relationships (love, friends, etc) are taken into consideration, especially regarding to love, human tend to become an IDIOT. A lot of us are still unable to handle our love relationships well. As I've mentioned before, it might be the worst and most complicated thing that ever existed in this world.

For instance, when you are trying to get closer with a girl in any way, apparently you will notice that the closer the distance you are with her, you are actually getting further away from her. Why would I say so? It might sounds weird but it's true, at least for me and some of my friends. Of course, some conditions are needed to be taken into account. Given a scenario, where you are trying to get into her attention by all means, but later she will just ignore you or just being perfunctory towards you. At this very moment, you will realize that she is just right in front of you, but the feeling of her is not there but somewhere else. You do not expect she will treat you back in such a way like treating a friend to an extend of being as a stranger. What else? you will start to doubt yourself whether she is the one that you knew before, because she's like a total stranger to you at this point!! So close yet so far.......

Anyway, just came back (as in 10hours back) from kl. Went to a trip organized by 2 societies and visited the Security Commission and KLCC as well. Although this trip was not as fun as I'd expected but still considerably OK. Like someone said, maybe is due to the presence of her, which motivated me along the trip? hahahahahahaha...that was funny !!

Kinda late right now...

gotta go !!

Nighty-nighty people !!!

Meaningful video to share with

Spend a lil' time on this CLIP..quite meaningful =)