Friday, April 30, 2010

他一定很爱你

想读书的心情就在一瞬间被搞砸了

想说。。今天的心情一定会比昨天好
因为。。昨天发生了一些事情。。真的不是很开心。。

其实。。到现在。。我真的还不知道。。
到底是不是真的已经放下了。。还是每天选择性的把她给忘掉
自从知道有了他后。。心情真的没有好过。。
曾今。。有问过自己。。若有一天他来了。。我该如何是好。。
结果。。总是想不出一个答案。。
好啦。。就在今天。。真的‘梦想成真了’
我坐在阳台上看着他们拥抱着。。
头脑一片空白。。只知道。。‘他。。来了’

其实。。觉得自己很堕落吧。。知道自己不比别人好
却没有努力的去改。。当要改的时候。。也是结束的时候了
不过。。我知道。。他对你很好。。
从老远的地方驾车过来找你。。
唱歌给你听。。为你量身定做一首歌。。
带你去玩。。看到你们的照片。。
你我曾今的回忆。。一下子全都回来了。。

说真的。。真的有替你们感到开心。。
看到你们。。真的很幸福。。很快乐
想起我们在一起的日子。。
真的不比现在的拥有的好。。

突然想起了一首歌。。唱出了我的心声。。


我躲在车里手握着香槟想要给你生日的惊喜
你越走越近有两个声音我措手不及只得楞在那里
我应该在车底不应该在车里看到你们有多甜蜜
这样一来我也比较容易死心给我离开的勇气
他一定很爱你也把我比下去
分手也只用了一分钟而已
他一定很爱你比我会讨好你
不会像我这样孩子气为难着你

不过。。

收音機一直在播 我們從前愛聽的歌
時間它卻悄悄說 現在我們愛聽的已經不同了
你說你有話不能說 眼眶有淚光閃爍
我想我也很明白 沒什麼好難過
放手也是一種溫柔 你和我都會好過
而你和我也有一天 會望回頭並笑著說
放手也是一種寄託 你和我都必須做
而從今後我們就能對自己說 已愛過了
放手也是一種感動 你和我都沒有錯
讓回憶它也隨著日子走 我們都愛過了

我想。。也是时候真正的放下了。。
你们。。要幸福哦! =)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Fancy enough =)



Don't worry
&
Don't ask me
I won't
At least for now
=)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Hypothesis Testing



Question
Test whether I'm productive right now. Explain your answer and the consequences. Suggest a solution for your answer.


Answer
Ho : Productive Night
Ha : Not Productive Night

CV : whatever it is

T-stat : no matter what figure it is as long as it's rejecting Ho

D.R : Calculated t-stat bigger than critical value, we reject Ho. Otherwise, do not reject.

Conclusion : Since the t-stat is rejecting Ho by all means, I've enough evidence to prove that I'm having another non-productive night.

Explanation : People around me are busy doing their revision while I'm busying fb-ing, doing some music recording, blogging, and misc.

Consequence : Staring at the exam paper during final exams.

Solution : Write some grandfather's stories and relate it to the questions during the finals. Alternatively, I should be start doing some revision by now.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

坚持和执着

不懂干嘛。。突然心血来潮。。
就很想写这篇东西出来。。哈哈哈哈

p/s: 我不是在emo -.-

想象一下。。你刚得到了一瓶装满沙子,很精致的玻璃瓶
因为你一时的冲动。。把玻璃瓶的盖打开了
就当你在欣赏它的时候
突然间。。电话响起来。。是他。。
在你很开心的和他聊天时。。你不小心的把玻璃瓶推倒在地上
你知道你是不小心的。。把电话盖上了后,
就把那些散在地上的沙子给捡起来。。

第二次。。你又把瓶盖打开了。。也不知道为什么。
再次不小心的把瓶子给推倒在地上。。沙子又漏了出来。。
这时。。你赶快把他们装回瓶内
当然。。如果沙子们会说话
他们知道你其实一直都陪在他们的身旁
不管是变成一盘散沙或什么的
你仍然会坚持的把他们给捡回上来
当初。。他们也因为你的坚持而被感动了

可是。。日子久了
玻璃瓶的盖,因为经常地被打开
平头开始磨损了
渐渐的。。沙子不知不觉的漏了出来
可是你却不知道
当你知道了。。你觉得这个时候
你还能把所有的沙子给装回进去吗?
瓶子里的沙子。。只会逐渐的减少

有时候。。失去。。不是一朝一幕的
而是因为很多之前某些因素而累积而成的
当然。。感情也是一样。。若不好好培养
它。。一样会离开
再多的坚持
也只不过是一种
执着

美丽的误会,完美的句号


也许。。你还是认为。。
我是那么的不关心。。
我就是那么的自私。。
我就完全不会去理会人家的感受。。

可是。。
你不会知道,把它还给你,是需要那么多的勇气。。
你不会知道,我是花了多久的时间来说服自己,把它回到你的身边。。
你也不会知道,为什么我会把它还给你。。

不过也好。。
既然你是那么的认为和肯定我的想法。。
本打算让你知道那个原因。。
不过,算了吧,再多的解释,也只不过是多余的。。

我,不会让你知道了
你,也永远都不会知道
就让它成为一个美丽的误会,完美的句号吧 ^_^

Monday, April 19, 2010

Emo Emo Emotional

I used to say to some of my friends, I dislike emotional people to an extend of hating them off so badly. But guess what, recently I'm being the one whom I've been disliking all the while.

Still figuring why nowadays my mood can change that easily just by looking at a single photo or listening to a song, or simply reading at a single phrase or sentence. Listening to one of the songs that I like, namely Arms of an angel by Sarah McLachlan, may actually calm me down easily and I would say it's a sweet lullaby back in those days. Nonetheless, this song is making me more emotional lately, exposing me to more and more thoughts, instead of finding comfort in the arms of an angel. I really hope that I can get more distraction and take a beautiful relief like what she sang in the song, yet thousand of thoughts are loitering aimlessly in my stupid head.

Starting to have the fear of reading blogs and Facebook updates recently. There are actually some people that I wouldn't want to know about their recent condition, yet actively published in Facebook and blogs. To be frank enough, looking at those posting is kinda hurt, I don't know why, but it just doesn't feels good. Of course, no doubt that there are some that I would like to know about them more, as I don't really talk or meet up with them that frequent. Somewhat, these people rarely update their status, and it's more to a ''up to me to judge them whether they are dead or alive'' thing, and this goes to her too.

Luckily she's not reading my blog, which actually allows me to express more of my feelings and thoughts over my lil' territory here. Guess what, blogging is really a perfect way for me to express my mood as I don't really like to bring up my pessimistic thoughts towards the people around me. I would rather look at all the happy faces on them that eventually cheers my up at the end of the day.

It's late now and she's still up in my mind, guess the only solution is shutting off my mind by lying down into that comfort bed. Hoping that Sarah's song can lull me to sleep for another night. Till then, good night.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Sunny - Rainy - Dusk

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

......

How good if there is someone to cheer me up right now

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Inner Thoughts

Was walking down the street alone today along with my netbook and camera. Guess I really like the feeling of backpacking and walking around with my babies. Somehow, I didn't really shoot much of the photos around KL, but just with the foods & beverages I had taken.

Took some light foods and desert in
港饮港吃 - LowYat Plaza

Went for dinner in Sushi King after lingering around Bukit Bintang for quite some period. Fortunately, I'm able to connect to the net with my netbook through Starbucks' Network (located beside the shop). To my surprise, I saw one of my friends just broke up with her bf. Somehow, I'm not close with her but if I'm not mistaken, she just got coupled like a few weeks back?? I thought they are another pair of those sweet couples but really got shocked when I came across the news that they have ended their relationship that fast.

Ordered a glass of hot green tea

They changed their A''a Carte Menu to this red hard cover book
Trust me, it looks much better than before

Some random thoughts came across my mind. Is it worth to stay for someone you like or admire with but yet they do not feel the same way as you do? Till now, I used to ask myself "What's my position in her heart?" A relationship is all about 2 people in it, it was meant to be in that way since the very first day when God created this world. So, guess what people used to say ''Save your love for someone who feels the same way about you'' is indeed true. Usually, when you are falling for someone who doesn't feel the same way as you do, if you were to ask for advises, people around you will tell you to walk off or else you are finding trouble for yourself. Also, I came across an article saying that, the person at the top of your best friend's list may rank you at only in the middle of his list. Similarly, the person that you like may rank you as a friend of hers only.

A'la Carte Sushi
Gunkan Sushi - Inari Burger

Maki Sushi - Kani Tama Maki

Likewise, being single ain't that bad after all..agree? Guess what, when you are all alone, you have all the freedom. What's better than hanging out with your a bunch of best friends in the middle of the night? Of course, there'll be definitely no one asking for your disappearance during the wee hours. What's even better? Your income will not split into 2, apart from paying the government taxes, the rest of the money will be spending at your ease. You can go to bed anytime as you wish, without forcing yourself to stay awake in the middle of the night (when you are damn sleepy) just to listen on all the nagging and grandfather stories on what they have done today or even few days back. (for some strange reasons, some girls tend to get over exited in the middle of the night -.- correct me if i'm wrong). And what's da best part? YOU CAN BE YOURSELF AS LONG AS YOU WISH..Hell ya !!

Donburi A'la Carte
Ordered a set of Tori Kaarage Don for my main course dinner =D

New recipe Tori Kaarage Don - The tartar sauce (white color thingy)

Free promotional item for purchasing Donburi set - Vanilla ice-cream

Nonetheless, like what they usually say 'there is no free lunch in this world', and you have gotta pay for all these stuff. Trade-off?? You will be all alone, as friends around you might have their very own commitment and no longer able to hang out with you that frequent, it's just the matter of time. You too, will start to lose the feeling of love, eventually making yourself more selfish and self-centered. Believe it or not, you will easily get hot-tempered as there is no one to calm you down. Also, you will feel the loneliness when you need a companion but there is no one that you can talk to.

If your mind pop-ups someone when you reading this, he or she might be the one you like or admire with. Whether to walk off and be single and enjoy your luxury life to the max but with the cost of feeling lonely, or try to work things out with you loved one, the choice is yours. For me, I was inspired by the phrase ''Save your love for someone who feels the same way about you'', so I guess being single for now is ain't that bad after all.
Met up with 2 old friends at the KL Wings Cafe later and ordered a cup of hot chocolate. Over there, they have really good singers singing in that cafe. I would say they are potential + professional singers. Anyway, chit-chatting with my friends really bring us back to those old days, reminiscing about those funny jokes and events.
Hmm, lingering down town for almost half of the day really refreshed my mind and let me think thoroughly on something. Guess I have found my resolve once again and not to stay at a point, looking backwards on what I've done. Life still goes on, people around us used to say that we've gotta learn to move on and face the world. But for me, life is never ideal and fair, and yet we'll have to deal with it by all means. Sometimes, if you're feeling tired, why not give yourself a break and look around? One day, you might discover who you really are and what you're looking for.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Voices In My Head


Actually right...

Now right....

Got a lot of stuff spinning in my head..

Actually right..

I hope right...

How good if can tell it out...

But hor...

Dunno larh !!

Go bang wall better

but

I saw this

Yet..still have no idea how to poke them with a tip

So

Choose a wall to bang is much easier and hassle free

Cheers !!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

An old song

Josh Gorban - To Where You Are



"To Where You Are"

Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory, so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be (?)
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are my
Forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away not far
To where you are

I know you're there
A breath away not far
To where you are