聽聽我的願望 • 好嗎

 就這一次

聽聽我的願望

可以嗎

3個月的時間

說長 不長

說短 不短

可心總是忐忑

還在為還沒找到工作的事煩惱

上天啊

這一次 我真的有認真在找

而且要做的 我也做了

請您大發慈悲

就這一次

順水推舟

幫幫我

聽聽我的祈禱

可以嗎

9月28日 - 勇氣

見了顧客後

終於鼓起了勇氣和老板說

累了 想要休息

想辭職這件事

也是深思熟慮后

才做下的決定

很多人都表示

"你確定嗎? 這個時候辭職?"

"想清楚了沒啊?"

"沒工作就辭職? 這時候?"

比較要好的朋友表示

"我幫你問問看 好像有工作"

"你要我介紹你什麼什麼工作之類的"

"我了解 你大概厭倦了 累了 才做出此決定吧"

你問我 怕不怕

坦白說 

我怕

雖說 規劃了後路

可萬一 人算不如天算

事情不如所願 

也是一件很困擾的事

踏出這一步

真的需要很大的勇氣

直覺告訴我 這是我應該做的事

也要相信 上天自有安排 

相信 祂 往往會把最合適的 

都安放我身邊

女孩她 就是一個很好的例子

這段期間 真的很感激有她的陪伴

在我身邊 盡聽我訴苦 任由我埋怨 

不知不覺 她已經在我心目中

扮演了一個很重要的角色

一個 很重要的人

我不想許下任何的承諾

但 我會盡我所能 讓她開心

倘若有一天她也有很想要做的事

只要妳她開心的 我大概也不會阻攔

而且 我也要時時刻刻地提醒自己

當我在人生最低潮的時候

是她 一直都在

一直 伴在我左右

有妳 真好

9年後的我

8月18日 | 晴

今年，我32歲

相隔9年後，看回23歲寫給自己了的一篇文章

說33歲的我 一定要找到一份自己喜歡的工作

還有僅僅4個月的時間

這份信念 還默默的存在着

在29歲那年進入了這家公司

一開始還拼了命的奮鬥 總算得了不錯的成績

慚愧的是 把自己身體健康弄得一塌糊塗

甚至還患上了恐慌症 一發不可收拾

比起23歲的我，現狀還要來的糟糕

更加不喜歡現在的生活 

完全失去了平衡點

雖說 不打東家打西家

可隨著年齡的增長 不是說想換公司就可以馬上換

再加上最近的新冠肺炎 狀況也非常不佳

大多公司都暫時不聘請新員工

紫微斗數 說今年是轉運年

運氣會特別差 錢財狀況也特別不佳

的確 而且還在8月16日晚

經歷了我人生最嚴重的一場車禍

慶幸的是 人無大礙

這幾9年來 不得不相信

上天往往有祂的安排

大概是上天安排給我的一種考驗吧

其實 老天啊

我真的很感恩 您對我不薄

身邊往往安排了幾個兄弟姐妹們

在我最低落的時候 

安慰我 扶持我

讓我一而再 再而三的度過難關

還安排了我現任女友 

伴着我度着人生最低潮

可您也知道 我現狀這份工作

也不可能持久 是否可請您老人家可開恩

大慈大悲 讓我盡快找到一份適合我的工作呢

我依然深信着

33歲的我

一定會更好

The Legendary Kid

Yes, is him !!!!

He is Sungha Jung from Korea !!!

Awesome night with awesome kid with his awesome performance =D

He is just

AWESOME

23歲的約定

在01.12.2011年這一個晚上，

雖然沒有風雨交加，也沒有晴天霹靂，也不是什麽特別的日子，

但，在這一晚，

我許下了兩個願望, 也希望能成功的辦到這兩個願望。

1. 我必須用最短的時間，克服現在的工作， 雖然是一個很漫長艱苦的路，可是，我希望我能挨過這一段日子。

2. 今年23歲的我，答應十年後33歲的我，一定要成功，然後，就找一份我真正喜歡的工作，開心就好！

最近都覺得，人生只不過短短幾十年，為啥就不能快快樂樂的度過。

這幾個月內，時間顯然過得特別快，不知不覺，就快要到聖誕節了。

雖然這些日子都過得不是很愉快，真的，

不過很慶倖，老天總會安排一兩個與我特別要好的朋友，

在我很壓力的時候，至少偶爾會在歡笑中度過。

這個星期，終於體諒到所謂的壓力，導致睡眠不足。

老實說，人長大了，朋友卻越來越少，

知心的就更別說了，十指手指也能數完。

半夜三更了，竟然心血來潮的寫了這篇熱血的東西。

也好，至少33歲的時候，就可以提醒自己，看到當年23歲的我，

想要達成的心願，不想辜負當年23歲的自己。

對了，忘了說，

最近都瘋狂在看九把刀的小說，瘋狂的。

從小學就覺得小說很無聊也因此從來不看它的我，

竟然一口氣就將三本厚厚的小說，

幾天內啃完！不信吧？哈哈，連我也不信！

就像刀大常說的，

“熱血起來的我，連自己也會害怕啊！”

好啦，

要睡了，明天一定會更好！

Fighting !!

九把刀 - 那一年的文章

可能是因为《那些年，我们一起追的女还》这部电影的关系，

最近我都在留意九把刀的部落格。

无可否认，他的文笔真的很独特，

像吃了毒品般，会一直不断地追读下去。

他写了一篇很好很好的文章，

不分享就是我不对。

（转自刀大的部落格）

“幼稚” 这个行为，

曾经的我，很讨厌它。

那时的我，

很渴望能快高长大，拥有大人般的想法。

可是长大后才发现，大人的世界一点都不好玩。

（转自刀大的部落格）

也许，

幼稚，也是一种享受。

很可惜，

在我现在的世界里，

幼稚这个字眼是万万不可出现的。

（转自刀大的部落格）

有时候，很想就一直幼稚下去，

因为大人的世界真的很无聊，

不过，刀大说得对，

“多虧那些無聊的大人，你才可以變成有趣的小孩”

而且，

刀大也说了，在感情世界里，

也许，就会有那么一天，

你会找到那个喜欢你幼稚的女孩。

今年的生日，

是唯一一次没切蛋糕也没许愿的一次。

可却收到了好多好多衷心的祝福，

还蛮开心的说， 谢谢你们!

p/s: 希望如你们所愿，能找到喜欢我和我喜欢的那一个女孩 =)

那些年, 我们一起追的女孩

超好看的一部电影

勾起了许多，许多的回忆

展开了一个比较接近现实生活的故事

一段浪漫的爱情

不看可惜啊

p/s:

更可惜的是

大马竟然把这部电影当三级片

剪辑了一些银幕

.. 唉 ..

无言

A simple wish

.: Dear Lord :.

I believe in your existence

and hence

I believe everything happens for a reason

.. So ..

Please show me the path

Shine your holy light on me

And show me the way

Enlighten me

安慰

爲什麽我總是在安慰人家
剛剛還要去安慰她..天啊

是註定了嗎？

一絲希望

用工作來麻醉對生活上一切一切的不滿..真的行嗎?
我..到底還能撐到什麼時候?

算了..
其實..也只能告訴自己
忍耐多一下吧..
希望上天這樣的安排是對的吧....

Fuck My LIFE

NO HOUSE

One stupid house cost your life

LOSING FRIENDS

Everyone is getting coupled nowadays

LOSING MONEY

I'm fucking poor and still need to feed the car

JOB

I dun get a job that I really like and am looking at all fucking paper works everyday

NO GF

I'm fucked-up in this, and i guess God wanted me to be single for the rest of my life?

Cuz' every girl that I'm interested in is involved in a complicated r'ship, with other guy.

FML !

So stop believing in Fairy Tales

It doesn't exist you motherfucker

FUCK MY LIFE

&

FUCK YOU TOO

SERIOUSLY

男人不壞。女人不愛

說白了..女生喜歡帥哥..男生也喜歡美女

不是嗎？

可是聽說..帥哥往往都是愛玩的

愛玩的男生..反而更受人喜歡,愛戴

四年前

我曾想過

幹嘛那麼辛苦去做好男人

壞男人不是更好嗎

可是到了今天

我依然做不到

也所以

還是孤獨一個人

身邊的朋友

卻一個,接一個的有了伴侶

可悲啊...

interesting =D

Motivation

Overtime or OT is common in the banking sector nowadays. But, is it really significant to stay back and work till late night?

I don't really agree on this practice as I perceive that working OT is not productive at all (for now). My colleagues are able to go back before 7.30pm, unlike me, staying back until 8pm? 9pm? or 10pm? Furthermore, I'm bringing my stuff home to work till midnight.

For the pass few days, I've the feeling that my life is totally imbalance. I've been overwhelmed by work, or they prefer to call it as workaholic?

Whatever it is. Now, I think I'm moving quite slow cuz' I'm still in the learning stage. And still, unproductive. Nonetheless, I've got a feeling that "I'm not there yet". I myself can feel the potential in me, a feeling like it is boiling and gonna burst out sooner or later. Cuz' I believe that, if your peers can do it, why can't you? Furthermore, they are holding more accounts than I do.

And I guess, the 'trying to catch-up with others, not to mention overtaking the rest' feeling is crossing my mind, everyday, which I think it's the main source of motivation that keeps me alive and back to work everyday.

Life's like a climb, if you're not smart enough, you gonna work hard enough, where experiences and learning curve comes in.

The unspoken sorrow

Morning @ 10.48am

My phone rang

"Hey, the owner ran away, with RM7k in total"

I was shocked, and stoned.

Although she didn't talk much about it

But over the phone

I can hear the disappointment

Deep inside her heart

Tears flowing unremittingly

I know the feeling

The unspoken sorrow

RM7k is her hard earned money

She purposely saved for the trip

and the irresponsible owner just ran away with it

Nevertheless,

Nothing can be changed by now

I guess it is all faithed

And, I have trust in faith

If you ask me whether am I a believer

Yes, I admit

and I believe..

I believe that

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

you'll never know

Music taught me to live

Colbie Caillat taught me that love is real

Greenday taught me that government's gonna fail someday

Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love

Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through

Travis taught me to be generous

Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right

30 Seconds to Mars taught me to speak whats on my mind

Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me

Music taught me to live

起起落落

我要一步一步往上爬

等待陽光靜靜看著它的臉

小小的天有大大的夢想

重重的殼挂著輕輕的仰望

我要一步一步往上爬

在最高點乘著葉片往前飛

讓風吹幹流過的淚和汗

總有一天我有屬于我的天

人生總會有許多起起落落

但..只要相信自己是可以的

總有一天..一定會有屬于我的天

Lesson learned so far

It's already a month since I've been employed and attending classes over classes. I would like to highlight some MAIN and crucial ideas for the sake of reminder, just in case I might flip through / glance through my old posts again in the future.

1. Integrity

2. Team work

3. Be positive

Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, Not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life.

Masterpiece =)

Time flies - Today is the last day of group training for BBDMTs and CMTs

I came out with this brilliant idea *wahahaha..SS-ing* and asked them to sign on this thingy.

Actually, it means more than a memory. Aside from those attractive colours, there are meanings behind. At times, we might face difficulties as we strive forward, sometimes our future may look dull and blur, and worse still, into a piece of darkness when obstacles are right into our way. It doesn't mean, ''That's it, I'm done with it.''

If you are willing to slow down your pace, you might notice that life is simple, better still, full of colours. It's just the matter of time and how you gonna solve that problem, is either by running away or look for the second way out.

Frankly, I really appreciate the training I'm going through right now. All trainers are experience bankers who came from various backgrounds. Being in a classroom doesn't mean that it's vapid or boring, no doubt that the notes and dry and very technical indeed. What really matters is the experiences they've shared with us. You can't buy these things with gold.

Life is simple, is YOU that make it complicated. Earning money is easy, is whether you cheat it or you earn it the hard way. When you make more money, apparently, you will get yourself committed into more unnecessary things, or I would say, trivia stuff.

Anyway, I guess I won't be going too far for now cuz' it's already 12 in the morning, and I'm quite sleepy indeed. So, I guess I'll be stopping at here for now, and last but not least, wishing all the MTs best of luck and health of course, and also all the best in their future undertakings.

Night peeps !

Voices Of Children

This is my newly composed song and its my first time to compose and arrange a song with an electric keyboard which is capable to produce a soothing grand piano sound. And since this is my first attempt, pls bare with me with all the mistakes and improper tempo throughout the whole song.